Woman, 50ish and Living Her Life
A lot of things had been going on in my life lately that got me seriously thinking. Reflecting, I realize that  Simone de Beauvoir was right after all. That  a woman  must be in-charge of her own life because only she knows what is best for her. Sure, one can be influenced by what others think but it should not be the sole basis of how life goes on. But why  didn't I realize this earlier? I guess it must be some form of a passage? Everyone goes through a phase --  the  hurts and the disappointments  resulting in my case,  from the dysfunctional and  inequitable realities of my own relationships. Was lack of wisdom brought in by my youth? Was I incapable of making intelligent decisions about my personal happiness because I was young? Inexperienced and afraid? Why did  I fail to recognize  much earlier that I am unique, different from everyone and, that was, in fact good? Did  I not know  myself too well? Afraid, just went along with the traditional notion  that 'good' women ...